The One I Can't Have

I am not to believe in your existence

Be it true or false, but I cannot turn back

I cannot simply turn to find you

Nor can I run ahead to embrace you

I truly am bolted with a thousand chains

Breakable these are but still....

Of all my dreams you come last

Of all hopes you cannot be fulfilled

In this twisted web where crimson hearts rust

My heart could not find yours

All these boundaries and all these thorns

Whether you be brave or courageous

I simply would remain bolted within...

When you find me within all these turmoil

Just walk away, Just smile and vanish

For I do not wish for this strong faith

A faith which could break me free

And yet, and still yet simply bolt me again

Would you understand?

Would you keep this promise?

Find me only to lose me again

Remain as the stranger you were

And leave me as far as possible...

From a stranger to another !

Such a distance that I can't cover

Oh why have you travelled so far?

Beyond my reach even my dreams have flown

To be with you in their rightful place

Left alone desolate of soul and heart

What am I to do here, so far so lone?

Naiveness you can call it

To have fallen from the seventh sky to this ground

Just to see you from a mile away each second

A fool I was and a fool I remain

Still crouching about where I landed on

While you walked your way out of my sight...

Trying here every time to call you back

But these barriers hold down my voice

For you are unaware and so free

Oh how can I bind you again?

How am I to drag you down from your seventh sky?

How am I to cut your healed wings?

I wait right here stranger,

For all that I have are with you

I wait like the fool that I am

And maybe one day you shall foresee,

That all hearts are not vile

All hearts does not change

And some hearts can wait

For now and tomorrow....

Nonsensical Tears

For reasons unspoken,

For reasons untold and misunderstood

These damned tears prick and tear out

Shallow and hollow how a soul becomes

When one loses all causes,

And yet cry and cry one’s heart out...

Tugging the bestowed cruelty

With a knot in the stomach too well known

All hell breaks lose too easily

A waterfall destroyed and a reign left too freely

Without any guardian,

Without any grounds to stand on anymore

All one can do is scream and scream the heart out...

Like shrieks from mute lips to deaf ears

Frustration of this sickening silence,

Resounding back nothingness of a dead end

Feelings that swell up right after,

Beckoning nothing but anguish and torment

And all one can do is hurt and hurt more....

Seasonal Love Affair

Palpable the hurt I emit through words

It reaches you, I know

Do you simplify, ignore and rip them apart ?

If not why is their attempt futile ?

Now so sudden, the feelings retained

For once let me revive those moments for  you...

So fragile you, a defiant being were

Noticing your vulnerable soul, I tried!

Building a world where she was condemed from

Comforting you through my wittiness

We had formed a bond of hope

Do you remember ?

A vow tied to my heart that day

To embellish your heart with wishes each season

How naive I sounded,

How obvious the reasoning

You did percieve with all might the reality

Attraction, beguilement or was I bitterly charmed ?

Swift and enigmatic words you sent me

I have lived an affair through them

Until reality called back upon you ?

Vanishing slowly and leaving a lingering trail

Choosing to live with frayed relations?

Soon & tardily I find us back again

Where you were your defiant self

I am a stranger you pass by now and then

Will you ever return my words back to me ?

I am hurt, paining and in agony ...

But you do not realize is that so ?

Forced  now I am to call this and that

A seasonal love affair ?

My Rain

The spirit in the rain calls out

In a faithful torn endearing

It soothes away the harmony

Absolutely nothing more worse,

Than the silence of its craving....

For something like you,

How can I feel pity?

More than one word

More than a thousand

Betrayed brutally by my rain

So it kisses goodbye

Neither you nor I feel anything

Love is beyond feelings

Or is it mere numbness, my love?

Don't drench me, your soul

Walking away, where will you go?

Rain... Mine and only mine right?

Kingdom of Solitude

Near the stone cold drops from heaven

In between the drizzling sky

Reigns my heart, eager for your movement

Crawling about for one beat from your lips

Oh! Am I mad to be so much in love?

Gazes from above, as the veiled stars mock along

This unforgivable serenity for you

Like a perfidy for the rest, leaving them for you...

Stars falling avoid my path,

Alongside the full moon, diverting its light,

From this bleeding kingdom of solitude...

Hey, I am still imprinted here,

Bolted within the mirrors of your love

In a falling sand castle,

The pillars of hope have cracked

As I see you carrying another queen

Smiling away, shattering my kingdom...

Beckoning you...

The foggy clouds embracing the white moon

With golden stars singing to the dark night behind

With the gutsy wind blowing away my thoughts

I wonder if this sky had embraced me in its hands

The silky water beneath the valley

The lullabies they sing with the trees

All are waiting for the arrival of one,

When the night kisses the moon away

And bosoms the unwilling Sun

Will you be there in my dreams again?

Wavering winds, Staggering breezes

Felt on the awaiting skin

As if your skin is caressing

How is this love so strong?

Only with an uncertain waiting,

The moon sang beckoning the lover…